I hope it gets easier soon…

Instead of it getting easier, it’s getting harder and harder to get her to transition into school 😦

She is very afraid of something, I’m just not sure of exactly what. It’s probably a combination of a few things and not just one single thing.

It took me over an hour this morning to get her to put her socks, shoes, and coat on. Then another 10 minutes to get her into the car, and a battle again to get her out of the car once we got to her school. The poor thing was shaking as I took her into school 😦

Tomorrow she has library and gym. Two things she loves, so I’m hoping that will make it a bit easier to get her into school tomorrow…..

A new week begins…

Tomorrow is Monday.  So far Monday’s haven’t been pretty good days.  First she was sick a few Monday’s ago so obviously she didn’t go to school.  Then once better, she completely went backwards emotionally and was afraid to go to school all over again.

She hasn’t had that issue since last summer/fall 😒.  It’s so hard so see her go through that again.

For the past few weeks since the end of Spring Break it has been the hardest battle to get her off to school.

I’m running out of ideas on ways to try and ease her fear and anxiety.

Any day off – even weekends – messes her up again…. It’s frustrating because I just don’t know how to help her through this.

I just hope that tomorrow is a bit better than the past few Monday’s have been…. πŸ™πŸΌ

It’s completely crazy how much damage a week can do πŸ˜”

Juli was doing really great before the Spring Break and then it all went downhill from there :(…

Almost everything she had mastered went completely downhill.  She went totally backwards.  I’m not talking a bit backwards in one or two things, no, I’m talking about backwards in almost everything she does.

Time off has set her back a bit before, but this is the worst of it yet….

She used to be ready to walk out the door and head down to her bus before I had finished getting dressed. Now I have to start telling her to get ready half an hour before her bus, and try to calm the complete fear that takes over 😦

She used to love taking the bus, now very afraid….

Everything down to the smallest detail has changed, and I’m trying to figure out how to help her

Relaxing after a long rough week!

  
It was a really rough week with Juju being sick all week….

I hope she is finally going to be able to give this bug a kick in the ass out the door!

We are relaxing together, even though we already did enough of it all week to last a lifetime lol…

I cuddling with my little Elsa queen… We are starting to talk and plan her bday party. I can’t believe she is going to be 7 years old β˜ΊοΈπŸŒŸπŸŽ‰πŸ˜˜πŸ’žπŸ’

She has already decided on an Elsa party – of course lol 😏. Now to try and make all of her dreams of the perfect party come true β€οΈπŸŽ‰!

Yep, she’s back lol…

When your child is sick, all you want is for them to be better. It breaks your heart that you can’t instantly make them better.

Then when you see them returning back to their normal selves, and they are back to “mommy….”, “mommy…”, “mommy?”, “mommy!” All day long, then you feel guilty for missing the peace and quiet that comes with them sleeping due to the fever….

Juju started feeling better in the late morning today – thankfully! Her bouncy, talkative personality started flooding back around lunch time.

She went from barely saying a word yesterday to barely shutting up today lol…  And within a couple hours her appetite had also pretty much returned.

Yep, my girl is back, and I really am thankful for it β˜ΊοΈπŸ’ž!!

Sick on her first day of break :(….

imageFirst day of Spring Break and my sweet girl has got a fever. Yesterday she had a bad migraine, but that has thankfully subsided πŸ™‚

But still today she is spending the whole day pretty much sleeping. Β And for anyone that knows my girl, knows that she never stops lol…

Our sweet Bells has barely left Juju’s side all day too. She knows her little human isn’t feeling well and is trying to keep her company and help Juju feel better πŸ’ž

I’m not sure if I’m happy it’s her break as at least she isn’t missing school :), but she is missing play dates that she was/is looking forward too…..

Hopefully her body will give this virus the boot really soon and she can enjoy some of her fun week I was planning for her…..

 

β€οΈπŸ€’πŸ˜΄πŸ’€

Day 3 :(…

Days 3 of a stubborn migraine.

I woke up with this not welcome friend on Saturday morning and it still doesn’t want to leave me alone….

It’s very draining to have a migraine.  I’m just thankful I don’t get them as bad as some people I know.

I’m trying to devote tonight to relaxing in hope it will get the message that it’s not welcome anymore lol…

I’m curled up in bed in cozy pj’s, with my crotchet work and a mug of Precious White Peach tea.

Hopefully this will do the trick as I have a busy month end week ahead of me for Make Green Go Green! Lots of exciting things going on and I’m helping a couple wonderful ladies get going with the team ☺️.

It’s going to be a mixed bag week. Great things with the MGGG team, but I’ve also got Katie’s anniversary of her passing on the 26th :(….

Going to be a long day….

Juju is off for a Ped day today and she is already becoming bored. Not for lack of things to do though. She has plenty to do.

This is because of a change in routine. She is used to going to school and now she is home and that messes her up BIG TIME!!!! πŸ˜•

She has games to play, puzzles she loves, school work to practice, and many other things to do including help me with chores – which she loves- but nope, she is feeling “lost” and has to figure her way out of it…..

She has a play date this aft and she knows it because she and the girl talked about it and planned it on Wednesday. Normally I don’t let her know about these things till a few minutes before as she will be obsessing on the clock and when is her friend coming.

She still gets very stuck in her repetitive pattern when she is very anxious :(….

She knows she has plenty of things to do, she just needs to figure out how to start feeling “normal” again.

Until she does, it’s going to be a very long day πŸ˜•

Today is Tbd…

Usually when I start my day, I have a pretty good idea of where I’ll be heading and what I’ll be doing. I have a plan for the day – doesn’t mean it will happen like it – but I have a plan.

Today is an up in the air day. A To Be Determined day. A wait for the forces that be to dictate kind of day.

Today is one of those days.

We were up in time this morning and Juli was fantastic and got ready for school in good timing. I was super proud of her! She even put her snowsuit on, and asking me for help (and at the same time telling me not to look at her surprise, which of course was her getting her outdoor clothes on without being asked LOL). I love when she does that!!! It’s so adorable!!!!

We got out the door on time to take her to her bus, but then we hit a snag….

The van doors were sealed shut by the ice. So I began yanking at the door, pulling and tugging, but it was being really stubborn. If I didn’t know better I would think that something didn’t want me in my van that fast.

Well, I finally got inside with Juli and when I looked at the time, I realized that we had missed her bus. So that means driving her to school. This is something I’m trying to avoid as she is having a hard time with the bus again and I don’t want to encourage it by driving her to school :(….

Unfortunately today there is no choice. And then I find out that there is a reason for it.

The forces that be are looking out for us.

When we got to the school, we found out that the school has no power, so they were debating letting the kids stay or send them home.

Juli would have been petrified getting to school by bus and having to go into a dark school…. As it was I had to let the door monitor know that she is autistic and petrified of the dark. He had her stick with him until there was a break in students entering and then he would bring her straight to  her teacher :).

And so I headed home realizing I have her money to buy her lunch, but if the power doesn’t come back on in time, she will have to come home as they wont be able to use the kitchen to make lunch for the kids. And if the power doesn’t come on by snack time, then they are contemplating having the parents come and pick up the I kids….

So as of now, this is a day where I’ll be basically anticipating and preparing for a call from the school….. In other words – don’t go far LOL!

For now, I get a coffee and start doing some chores while I wait for this day to play itself out…..

Happy Hump Day….. πŸ˜•πŸ€”

Feeling safe feels good :)

There are times when I experience a situation that prior to being diagnosed I would not understand why things are the way they are. But now since I found out that I have Asperger’s I have quite a few “ah, that’s why!” Moments….

Those moments feel really good. It’s like a sense of completion :). It’s like something that I always thought was broken in me or I didn’t know why I was different, I now have a reason and know that it’s ok to be exactly how I am πŸ™‚

I had one of those moments on Saturday after juju’s cheer comp. I was with her cheer group which is full of people who understand special needs :).

They are watching a movie and they are all laughing like crazy at this movie. I look at the movie and I don’t understand what they are laughing at….. In fact, I found the movie a bit stupid.

Out of every 10 jokes that they said, I got maybe 2 of them….

What felt the most amazing though is that since I’m with all of the team parents I was in a safe environment and I didn’t have to worry about what they thought of me πŸ™‚

That feels so good!!! 

Welcome to Monday Morning….

I’m working on a cup of coffee and catching up on one of my fav shows for a few minutes before I go back to tackling house chores….

Monday is always my “cleanup after the weekend and get organized for the week” day lol

I make sure to make time for winding down from the weekend as weekends usually feel like whirlwinds…

Monday’s are harder days for me as things are finally quiet and my brain needs a lot of time to absorb the quiet.

I have a few chores in the kitchen on my list so that they will encourage me to get going and do more :).

I love Mondays, but I hate Monday’s too lol.

Time to heat up my coffee, and finish it so that I can move onto tea 😊

Happy Valentine’s πŸ’

I hope you all had a nice Valentine’s Day :).

Even if you don’t have a significant other in your life, that doesn’t mean Valentines Day isn’t for you…..

Not true at all!

I believe VD is for everyone. It is about think of, celebrating and being thankful for all those we love. Whether it be best friends, sisters/brothers, your children, etc…. Valentine’s Day is an extra time to focus on love and making a point of showing it and expressing it to all of those we love :).

So I truly wish you all love and happiness in your lives, and I hope you had a beautiful Valentine’s Day.

Total 360 :( !

We were at the dentist this afternoon and I was not sure what kind of reaction to expect from her….

Last time she asked me to stay out in the waiting room and she wanted to go in and do the visit all by herself like a grown up….

This time was the total opposite 😦

She was already crying and in a repetitive loop even before we reached the door to the building. 

The dental assistant was waiting when we came in and she saw Juli’s emotions right away.

She told me quietly that there is a good chance we will have to postpone as Juli is way to upset to get anywhere :(.

Juli’s autistic tendencies were showing themselves more than I have seen them in a long time. In fact longer than I can remember….

She was holding her hands over her ears, rocking slowly back and forth and leaning her head forward. I have rarely seen her do that. For some reason this visit was very upsetting to her.

And so unexpected since last time she insisted on doing the whole check up on her own.

We have to go back in a month in the morning and try again….

I was a good girl this afternoon lol…

I’m always being told by those that love me, that I need to listen to my body. To stop and rest when my body tells me to…

Well, I don’t very often listen, but today I did.

Yesterday was a very long day and my body needed today to recover. So I listened and took it easy. Trust me, that’s not very easy for me to do lol!!

Yesterday my body was trying to get me to slow down and stop and I wouldn’t listen. I regretted it last night and today.

I don’t want to make that mistake again lol….

So I was a good girl this afternoon and forced myself to take it easy on the big chores and focus on the small ones…

I know H will be proud of me πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘πŸ»…

Balancing Act….

Yesterday was a day for non-stop running around and getting as much done as I could. And I over did it….

Today I have to force myself to take it easy and blend equally getting some things around here done with relaxing :)…

Definitely easier said – or in this case written lol – than done.

Got Juli off to school and now I’ve been having some catch up time with my soaps.

In a little bit when this episode is finished, I’m going to go and get some steps in and work on some easy chores :). Then give my hands a break so I can tackle the bathroom this afternoon.

Get things done today, but time it right so that I don’t end up hurting or overwhelmed. Juli asked to go to daycare after school for a bit so that gives me a little extra time :).

Yay lol!!

Too much :(….

Yesterday was all about doing a lot…too much in fact.  I was running on complete adrenaline and total lack of sleep.

Today I regret that. Not what I managed to accomplish, just how much I pushed myself to do it all.

And of course, how much my hand and foot hurt when I went to bed last night :(…..

I should have taken it more easier yesterday knowing that I needed to be out most of the day today.

Sometimes I’m on a roll and I just want to go go go! I forget I need to listen to my body too……

It’s so hard, when you’re accomplishing things!!

I’m just happy the tomorrow is a keep calm and relax day. I really need one of those right now……..